imprints

We all have people who come into our lives they can have a great influence or they can leave bitter memories, regardless they are all imprints. People cross our path so that we grow older and wiser we can learn from all the good and the bad. Lets face it if everything was great all the time it would be very boring because you would know the outcome every single time. Experiencing the highs and lows of life is what makes life exciting. Let's say an ex leave your life and they basically tell you that it's not working out because you are very different in the way you think or just a plain douche. You may be in temporary pain for a few days or weeks but eventually you will know not to go for a certain type of guy or you look for someone that you can compare to more. What if the next time that you meet someone the tables can turn and for some reason you don't find it working out either then you can also get an understanding of why the ex from before said it. It was still a positive message that was sent but with a negative beginning nothing in the world is negative if you do take it that way you will always get hurt in the end and there will be no end to your heart ache and have an understanding why things happen they way they happen. So it's your life bot theirs make it a positive one and you will see that things will fall into place very soon and you won't have such hatred for the world anymore. :)

Venerable

We all go through life,death,heartaches,joys and many more emotions through life. It we all with these life influential feelings in all different ways. I have actually witnessed someone who had so many walls up and have known this person for awhile now. It wasn't until a very tender moment with someone who was able to relate to him on the most tender moment was I able to see the most raw emotions and source of why he had so many guards up. This person is my boyfriend he is a strong minded individual who did not want to show a sign of weakness at all because he felt that all he has is himself. The whole point of this point is that when people who have had something so traumatic happen to himself/herself, they are the ones who may be the most sensitive. The thing is that people like this do not need to feel like this because even with a dark soul people actually has someone who cares about them and are trying to understand him or her to help them out. The idea for humans to help one another in their time of need I would like to say that there is someone out there for you to reach out for I know I am here for you :D

New Direction

Hey I know that its been over two years that I have blogged and I have been going through the toughest time of my life and it took a lot of strength and soul searching for me to pick myself up. I have finally done the last bit of soul searching that I am now comfortable in my own skin and thoughts that I can start this up again. I have started this blog with many purposes a journal,a gossip column, an escape from reality, but this new direction I am hoping that I can help people in the world. Especially gay men I am a gay man who had the hardest coming out in life and I know plenty of people who have had parents tell them "it's okay, I already knew it" or "I will accept you no matter what". I have had the complete opposite of that reaction. I have had lived through many aches of life that some people don't face until later in their years. So this blog is to reach out to those people who want any advice gay,straight,transgender who are too afraid to ask questions because they fear of the responses that they will get. I know that we live in a world where we are starting to be a bit more accepted but there is still no 100% acceptance who they are.

All Directions lead to a Path ...

Do you believe that things happen for a reason? Do you believe that their is someone out there that is controlling the things that happen to us? Do you believe that everything that is happening to you is leading you to a place that you can find total happiness ? Lately, I have been skeptical of this whole idea of somethings just being thrown out there and only the decision of you making it will allow you to make a change in your life. Well, ever since I was a about 13 I started to fall in love with the French culture and everything that it has to offer and so it has been a dream of mine that I someday go to Paris to experience it all. The point that I am trying to prove with all this rambling that I am doing is that lately everything that has been going day in and day out have been pointing in the directions that i should go to Paris and enjoy and live my life. First of all the amount of French people that I have come across lately is astronomical and the idea of how many people in my life would love to go to France and be a part of my experience. Hopefully, this May I am having the pleasure of going to Paris whether it's by myself or with friends but I am ecstatic about the whole idea and I hope that in all the waiting that I have been doing in my life going to this wonderful country it will not disappoint in what it has to offer. =)

The stars

Once again I lay in bed wishing on the first star that i see tonight, All I want from you is to wish is you stare out the window and hope that I cross your mind like you cross mind. Dancing in space and you could travel infinitely to wherever your mind would like.
I want to be a star along side with you shine brighter than the moon and together we could travel wherever our hearts desire.
Why must you stay on my mind? I know why, it's because the light that you shine is brighter than anything and anyone that I know and as long as that light keeps on shining I will always be by your side and follow you till the very end.

New Beginnings

SO lately i have been ignoring this blog and I have decided that since my life is heading in a new direction and it is moving at a very rapid pace I need to start writing down everything. I would love if people start to let me know of their ideas and how I can entitle them into my world and I would love to show the many different sides to the world